New Year-New Hopes

Ryan did a brief stint in the call center. Now he has a new job installing window coverings commercially, which so far he loves!! I have a job offer pending as well. We finally moved back to Boise!!! Jordyn is finally feeling well after a rough December which included multiple Dr. visits, and a Christmas Eve trip to the E.R. for an injury that I believe was all made up. We continue to be thankful for all the help and support that we have received throughout 2009 and we are looking forward to regaining our foothold in 2010.

New Leaf

Well this week things will change. Ryan starts working with me- we shall see how that goes. Jordyn has a new sitter- so far we really like her. It will be a week full of getting up at 3:30 am to get out the door by 4:30- drop Jordyn off by 5:00 and be at work by 5:30. Yeah, its gonna be rough, but at least we wont have to feel like charity cases anymore. If Ryan can stick with it, which I know he CAN, we will be able to regain some control over our finances and possibly our lives. Not that either of us plan to work there for long, just until another opportunity presents itself. We meet tomorrow with our possible new landlord for a house in Boise. Things seem to be looking up. Finally.

Will this end soon??

I'm in my 3rd month of work at a job I hate. I am grateful to have it, but pretty much everyday I get there and pray that there will be mandatory time off. Even if I have to starve because of the lack of a paycheck it will bring. I actually envy the guy that cleans the bathrooms- wishing I could trade him positions. Here's the thing.... I hate phones, I don't really talk on mine and now I spend 40+ hours a week on one talking to people who are mad at me for something I didn't have anything to do with in the first place. It is really not the job for me. I am still looking for a better option- but it has not presented itself as of yet. Hubby is still home with the baby- he would rather work, and yet it is the opposite reality. I would just like this drab cycle to change and get us back to how it used to be when we didn't rely on everyone who loves us to get us through.
Jordyn is walking now, and we are excited about her first official Halloween as a kid. Although we are too poor to get her a costume. So far I think I will just put her in her Halloween jammies and bundle her up real good and call it good enough. I really want to take her to a pumpkin patch and get some photos too. I suppose you can go to a patch without actually buying a pumpkin right??? It is ridiculous when you can't afford to buy a freakin pumpkin for Halloween. I am just frustrated at the situation, and I want to provide better for my family. I have numerous family members who have helped us out tremendously with getting Jordyn clothes and coats and toys and more.... and I appreciate it so much, since I am not able to. In a sense I feel like I am failing her as a mother, but I know this will not last forever. Something has got to give sooner or later.

My baby's first Harley

Big Steps for the Little Lady

This week has been a busy one for miss Jordyn. She has begun to cut her first tooth, she has started to suck on a sippy cup and can drink water ( which is huge for us), and last but certainly not least, she began to army crawl yesterday. She still amazes me every day. She is such a bright light in this world that has seemed so unyielding and cruel as of lately. I am so fortunate that I have her and I am grateful for her everyday.

I've decided I am a Senior Citizen

I have been falling apart lately, and I don't think it is all that sudden. I frequently find myself talking to friends who are telling me stories of our past, of which I have to ask if they are sure that it was "me" in the story with them because I have zero recollection of said event. I forget what I did the day before, a week ago, hell, sometimes 5 minutes ago. It is embarrassing at times. I have developed this habit of sleeping anywhere from 12-13 hours a night, sometimes more.. and yes, I do this with a 6 and 1/2 month old infant.. I'm not sure how it works, but I think she got my genes because she joins me. We go to bed early, most of the time, say 9:00 and get up usually around 10am. Pathetic I know. I haven't worked in a year or so, but somehow I am exhausted. On top of that, I somehow injured my back about 2 weeks ago and have been hobbling around like a little old lady ever since. I have to steady myself to stand up, and sometimes grab walls while walking so as to not fall over completely. Some night I dose up on Vicodin, other nights I just try to ignore it for the sake of not polluting my milk for the wee one. I finally got a massage today and my masseuse told me that she could see a huge swollen section on my lower back and she didn't even have to ask where the pain was, it was that obvious. I am afraid of what shape mentally and physically I will be in when I am a "senior" if this is as good as it gets now. Perhaps I should take up daily stretching, exercise, brain games, and B vitamins.

She's too cute

I seem to post about Jordyn alot, but she is too adorable! Yes I am biased. I am just so thankful that through everything negative in the world and life in general that I have such a bright ray of sunshine everyday. I love my daughter!